Mean As Custard (calico_pye) wrote,
Mean As Custard

Black Dog

It's late at night and I have spent best part of the evening in bed. I think this bug has been too much for me. I am vulnerable to burn out. I tend to not eat properly, nor take proper breaks - sometimes I do not realise this until too late.

Then other problems start. I can't explain it - maybe it's the grind of writing essays and having massive writer's block, but I start to fray. I feel like fabric pulled so tight, that a rent tears in the middle.

What bothers me is that the assignments are taking longer to write - used to be about four days, now takes seven. I have 6 weeks left and I am already done, in regards to energies levels. I also find it so difficult to talk - not just the usual stutter, but that I have a wordless mouth.  Sometimes it is a plus, I tent to be able to write more - other times a worry, especially if I have got to the stage of burn out and I can't write either.  Whatever way, it is an un-sayable block, an ink-less pen, a stuck keyboard.
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