I was a bit cross with myself yesterday, because I am letting myself be distracted so I don't do my course. This self sabotage-ment is ridiculous - I think it's because I feel if I commit to it properly and screw it up, then I was sloppy somehow, or just plain dumb and I don't want to do that. So I gave myself a bit of a talking to and finished the first assignment, will proofread it one more time, then upload later. I also need to do an assessment online which will probably happen tomorrow. I want to see if I can get this course done and dusted by the middle of April. I think if I treat this more like I did my degree, I might do a lot better. It will also be better that I treat this as a stay-at-home job. I need to impose my own deadlines.
It's a start and I'm feeling a bit better about it now :-)