April 11th, 2017
To be honest, yesterday was catastrophic - a combination of self sabotage and outside things happening (Prodigal 2 in a funk because he lost his job in telesales). It was all a bit 'dark night of the soul' stuff, too. Like, 'You're not good enough/You're going to run out of time/There will be nothing on the other side when you get out.' On and on. Inner voice carping and I wonder why I won't let myself be good enough to get this important mark (major dissertation = 40% of final year mark). Today I have been up since the early hours and am more driven, plodding on and seeing what I can achieve today.
There are more than enough words, but I am adding the academic stuff and turning it more into an argument. Let's see what this looks like at nine tonight :-D
I have just done a quick tally to see how many words have been contributed to the final dissertation so far. 9,069. There will be a lot more written and pared back before I submit. For instance, I know for a face that I really should at least five more outside sources in this chapter alone and I have precious little for ch3. Plus 500 approximately for the conclusion. Still, it is heartening to see.
A friend of mine is due home tonight and she is usually my confidante. I think I need a bit of a pep talk, so sometime over the next few days, i will have a chat - albeit brief.
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