Mean As Custard (calico_pye) wrote,
Mean As Custard

365 Days Til Graduation - Yay :-/

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Today, my fellow class mates graduated with their BA English.  I, however, did not.  Because of a horrendous year last year (Hubby = cancer; Self - chronic IBS), I had to watch my grades slide; the only way I could get through was to ease up a bit and go part time. It was literally 'a-stitch-in-time' scenario and it did pay off.  Yet, I see their faces today, beaming with pride and I feel like crap - especially since I have to go back next week and do the final sixty credits.

Thing is, I didn't see this coming.  Don't get me wrong, I am so proud of them.  Several of them have had to overcome massive hurdles to get there and it has all paid off.  Except, I'm not one of them :-/

It's the train rides home and the impersonalisation of it all that gets to me. Makes me keyed up and it's not helped that I am gonna have to grow some and get back on the horse.  I consol myself that I have grafted over the summer in regards to research, so I am not ill-prepared.  I STILL don't know what I am going to write about - THAT bothers me.  So, yeah.  Am a bit in the doldrums.  Thing is, I have to push myself forward because it will be ten times worse if i didn't see this through.
Tags: ba english yr 3, the black dog
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