I am so sorry in regards to the way I behaved. I was pressured into making decisions that I was ill-prepared to do, but I felt that those decisions were the only ones I ould have made. On reflection, I realise that it could have been handled very differently, but we can all experience from hindsight, can't we?There isn't a day that goes past without me feeling regret - on many levels and the consequences that spiralled from that decision.
My only defence is that at that time, I was too immature to understand the ramifications of my behaviour. I really wish that I could have apologised to you in person, but it is too late now and besides, I don't know whether my apology wouldn't be interpreted a different way and would have made things worse.
I hope that on some level, you forgave me. Regardless, I am sorry for what I did to you.